Hello. I know I haven't posted in awhile. Well I just got high-speed internet. So I will be on quite a bit now. I have a new "friend". She lives next door. We went to Nashville a couple of weeks ago and got smashed. We met up with my friend that lives in Nashville Jessica. It was a blast to get away from all this crap at home. Got my disability and backpay. So now I deciding my future for my son and I. I have been in the hospital with brain surgery. Now I may need another surgery. So right now I can't work as a x-ray tech. No worries though this is temporary and I still have my license and can go back to work when I am able. My friend Gwenn is awesome. She has been taking me out showing what I have been missing for the past 2 1/2 yrs. I got a tattoo. I always wanted one, but finally did it! It is on my ankle. It is the chinese symbol for peace. My parents will freak because they are so conservative, but you know what I dont care. Well hope all is well in your lives. Can't wait till Jorja is back on CSI. Glad she is doing the animal awareness. She is awesome. Can't wait til Uh Huh Her CD comes in the mail. They rock! I love Leisha! Well Peace and love!

I know it has been ages eince I updated. Sorry Just not been in a good mood to be on the computer. Well anywhoo. My birthday was May 7 and I went to Nashville to visit my Jessica and go to an UH HUH HER concert. That is Leisha Hailey's band from The L Word if yall don't know(duh) lol. Well we went to dinner at the Olive Garden. Perfect place cause we are both vegetarians. Then off to The Exit Inn to see UH HUH HER. The concert was Fucking AMAZING! We were right in front of the stage. I could touch Leisha and Cam if I wanted too. Well we had a few drinks and we were all dancing! This was the first time I had ever been around lesbians. This stupid little town I live is  just dumb. Well I felt so free. I loved it. After the band signed. I got a poster and a t-shirt. I met Leisha and Cam. They were so nice and HAWT. They both said happy birthday to me and posed for a picture. So it was the greatest birthday EVER. Afterward, we went to the local lesbian bar called "TheLipstick Lounge" for the after-party. Everyone was having such a blast and singing karoke. Then I spent the night with my friend Jessica and headed home. What a blast.

I haven't posted in awhile, so I thought I would. Things are not so rosey here, but hopefully they will get better. Dawson is staying sick this winter. His immune system is so vunerable. He is being tested for the gifted class. I am so proud. Today my lawyer called and my hearing is April 8. So, maybe I will get my back-pay and maybe get out of here. I want to find that person that is destined to be with me. A person who doesn't judge me and loves me for who I am. I hope Alyssa has a beautiful time in LA. I want to go so badly, but maybe I will be able to go one day. To meet Jorja would be a dream come true. I am driving up to Tennessee Saturday to meet Jessica. We can catch-up on things and hang out. I need to get away for just  a day. Well peace, love and happiness to all. Enjoy Valentine's Day with someone you love. I wil lbe spending it with Dawson. He has my heart. Huge Love <3

Alot has happened since my last post. My Aunt passed away. I was in the room with her, holding her hand. It was a moment I will never forget. Dawson is doing great. I have been having some issues with headaches, but nothing new. Sara lived on CSI! Yeah, for that! I was so happy! I hope Jorja will stay the entire season, but it looks dim. I had a crush on someone, and they told me they felt the same. So, we have been chatting. Well the other night, they tell me that they don't feel that way anymore about me. So I was heart broken. Life goes on. It just sucks sometimes. Well hope all is well with everyone. I will be fighting for Jorja to stay. Will mail my "dollar" letters. Peace and love to all!

Well Jorja, the new kitty we got a few days ago died this morning. I did everything I could for her. She had some kind of disease. So the Vet. said. I held her and watched her take her last breathe. It is not fair sometimes all the shit we have to endure. It reminded me of the song though, "Turn, Turn, Turn". "There is a time to live and a time to die". I guess it was Jorja's turn to die, even though she was not alive on this Earth  long. I have had a rough few days. I am dreading Dawson's surgery and things are not going great in the finacial situtation here. My husband blames me because of my pain and my ability not to work. So hurrah it is my fault again. His mother is having Lapband soon. She has been through this 6 month thing to where you have alot of checkups,etc. until your insurance will pay for it. Well when Dawson's surgery is over I am going to start it. I will have Lapband probably 6 months from now. I am excited because I think it would make my life better. They would be doing it on medical reasons because I am not 100lbs overweight. Well we go to Birmingham tomorrow for pre-op for Dawson to ask our questions and all that jazz. I am going to miss talking to my friend/ my rock through this. (Morgan)She is going on vacation. I miss her alot lately because she began a new job and I can't talk to her as often. I am proud of her though! She deserves this vacation! I miss you UB and love you!  Thanks Lyssa for the bracelet you got me! It rocks! It made my day! Peace and love to all.

I am scared as hell! Dawson's surgery is coming up July 25. It is a bone graft and I am scared to death for him. I have already told him that he is having surgery to fix his gum and so his teeth will be straight. I don't want to do into detail about it. It will just scare him as well. I just dread the NPO and the morning of the surgery. They will have to do an IV of course and he will not like that. I just hope that they will give him some Verset (happy juice) to calm him and help with the seperation anxiety. I just hope we get through this. It does not help the fact that I will have to be stuck in the same room as my husband the whole time Dawson is in the hospital. Atleast here at home I can go to my computer or read or go outside. Welll whomever is reading this (if anyone) keep my son in your thoughts. Thank you! 

Dear Jorja,

     Happy Birthday Jorja! I hope it is filled with peace and love! You so deserve it! When I feel down and out, I can think of you and feel better! That is an awesome thing! Thank you for all your charity work and thank you especially for the strong women roles you have played on TV! You are an inspiration! I will be your slave for the day or year or whatever lol! Peace and love--Shannon





Today is my hero Jorja Fox's birthday! I hope she has a great one! Today also marks the 2 yr. ann. of the London bombings. My thoughts and prayers are with the victims and families. I wished that we could all live as one in peace. Today also is the Live Earth concert. I believe everyone could make a difference in this World and save it, if we just tried. It is simple as buying  a special lightbulb. What else do we have to live on? Peace and love to all!

Wow! What a few days! I have been so sick. My medicine has been screwed-up and I have been on the couch for 3 days! I had to go to the ER Sat. night/sun. morning. My Dr. has called ahead and told them orders. Well they did not do them. They just gave me a shot and sent me home. So I have been in hell for the past 3 days! When they mess with your meds that you have been on for years, it sucks! I went crazy yesterday yelling, cussing, throwing things! WOW! That is not me. I am a laid-back person. That hardly ever yells.  I have cut myself before when I get upset. So I cut myself yesterday for the first time in over many months. So, today they finally got my meds straightened out and I am so much better. I don't wish that on anyone. Tomorrow I go for another set of injections in the back  of my head and neck. So hopefully that will help. Dawson has been so sweet. I gave him a bath and he told me when I go to feeling bad to think of him, Jorja Fox and Morgan. He is my life! I hope everyon else is great! It is looking up for Jorja to come back next season! I hope her Emmy Nomination stays! She so deserves it! Peace and love to all!

Today was Culley's surgery. It went well. We were there ALL day long. We did not get home till after 6:30pm. Dawson has been wide-open. I am taking care of both of them. I am pulling my hair out. The surgery went well. The Dr. said that it was more invasive than he first thought. The labrium was torn worse and the cyst was bigger. So he had to put two small hooks into the bone there in the shoulder to pull it back together. He will be out of work for 6 weeks. Hopefully everything will be fine. I have my procedure tomorrow. The Dr. will inject me with 50cc of pain medicine in each nerve in the back of my head and neck. The Occiptal nerve. To pretty much put to sleep the entire back of my head to help out with the pain. I have been extremely happy with them so far. I will be good to go afterwards. It will just be sore and I wont be able to turn my head tomorrow night from side to side. I will be able to take care of everyone though. I know people are wondering why I am having it done one day after Culley's surgery, well if I cancelled mine it would be over a month till the next available appt. Dawson is having 3 teeth pulled on June 11. So we are gonna be some nice, sickly folks. So, anyway hope everyone is doing well.  Dawson is enjoying summer so far. Just playing and reading. His favorite two things to do. Well peace and love to everyone. Go to www.goveg.com and vote for Jorja as the sexiest vegetarian. Hope Jorja is back in July for filming of Season 8. Guess we will find out soon! =)

Today was Dawson's last day of school. He is now in 2nd grade! Wow where does the time go? He won quite a few awards! He won an award for being on the Honor Roll all year, he won an award for Outstanding Reading  Achievement from his Voyager Reading System, He won an award for benchmarking on the Dibels test and he won the award for The Highest score on the Dibels test in the whole first grade. The Dibels test is a test they take 2 times a year that shows how fast an accurate a student can read. Their "benchmark" grade is 50 WPM (words per minute). Like he is suppose to be able to read 50 words a minute from a story or whatever. He reads 185. So he reads better than the whole first grade! He is reading on a 3 1/2 grade level right now! He did not talk till he was 4 1/2 due to health problems and the dr. told us he may never talk. Well, we have been blessed that he don't only talk, but he is so smart. I don't know where he got that from, but I am very proud! I remember feeling him move in my tummy and I remember hearing his first cry. I remember holding him for the first time. Now, he is in 2nd grade and so smart. When I am having a bad day, I can always hold him or hug him and smell his hair and that helps me. I know that it sounds corny, but it is true! I am so proud of you Dawson! He has a long way to go. He is having some surgery the 11th of June on his teeth. Then after that heals, he will have the biggest surgery yet, the bone graft. Then he will have braces put on his front teeth. I just hope everything works out and he will have a perfect smile.